happy father's day

he is the 1st one who hold my hand.he is the 1st one who hug me.he is the one who dote me the most.


i love him.
in my memories,he never cane me before.and he bring me out to escape when my mum beaten me up.when i was small,everytime playing with my bro and he started to bully me,i will shout for help,and my kelian bro will be scolded by him.
before the age of entering kindergarten,he love to bring me out whenever he go.shopping,yumcha with his friends,or just driving car to go wherever i want.i remembered he love to bring me go for a spin with his motorcycle when i was kid.i sat in front of him and he just let me control the steering(dangerous act,dun learn!>.<) and about the age of entering kindergarten,he hold my hand out for a stroll,and passed by 2 kindergarten.he asked me which 1 i wan to study,and i just pointed the 1 has a bigger playground in the kindergarten...haha...and he bring me enrolled to that kindergarten.everyday i ask him to bring me to the shop opposite the pasar to "转鸡蛋".this is my childhood,full of memories with him.i like to ask him for reward whenever i got good result in primary school.he will buy me anything that i wan to eat,even it's from far away.he try to give me everything that i want.he spent a lot on me.HE IS MY BELOVED DAD. :)


sometimes he is very humour.but i found out he will be like that in front of me only.LOL.i like to chat with him.he make me feel relieved.i am very naughty,like to ask him 2 questions:1.why my name is 惜敏,not思敏? 2.why my name "simin" don't have a space between(si min)? LOL




on phone with him yesterday,he asked me why don't want go ipg.i can't answer it.he sounds...a bit disappointed(?)he said don't have enough money for me.he still find a way to let me enter matrikulasi.i know i let him down for my spm result,but he still smile at me,said i was doing better than my bro.


i made his burden become heavier.i feel i am so useless when i see him getting older and older whenever i go back home.his hair is getting white.he has many health problems but still working hard.sometimes i really feel heartache when i see all these......


and i miss him very much now.i feel like going back home badly.=( 
daddy,happy father's day.