bloggie changed~

bloggie bloggie changed!!!:D

http://endeverydaywithasmile.blogspot.com/

:]

i miss those times.
the time, full of me and you. :]






85
就让它去吧。

怎么了

为什么他说的话总能牵动我的心。


不管多久，不管多错，你总会找个理由让自己去原谅他。




有人说过，一个人的一生当中会有三段恋情。
第一段，你还处于懵懂无知。
第二段，是你最爱的人，而刻骨铭心。
第三段，是最爱你的人，而一直永恒。




一个人该如何选择？你会选你最爱的人，还是最爱你的人？




你以为放下很简单吗？只是有些事情，不得不让你如此选择。



83
有些事，真的很复杂。该不该，就让它结束？谁也无法预知会发生些什么事。

他

今天是他的生日。
但我不能陪在他身旁为他庆祝。
笨蛋，生日快乐:)
笨蛋有事没能接到我的电话，真可惜。


在这个月圆的日子，也祝你中秋节快乐。
愿你能过得好好的，天天开开心心的。
把一切的烦恼都抛开。
加油。


期待15个小时后，
或许你能出现，
让我为你庆祝。:)



68.
月圆人团圆，可惜我不在你身边。我爱你。

她

这是篇迟了几天的文章。

他。鲍春来。

他，是她的偶像。

帅帅的鲍春来（虽然我始终认为林丹略胜一筹:P）

她，有着和他一样的精神，永不放弃的精神。

她，也喜欢学着他，左手戴个蓝色的手环。XD

她，和他一样，喜欢天空的蓝。

我一直都很欣赏她的艺术天分。

常嚷嚷着她，给我做张生日卡。

也常嚷嚷着她给我画些东西，只因为我的美术简直是惨不忍睹。

O(∩_∩)O哈哈哈~

她，我的同桌两年。

在中一到中三算是毫不相识的两个人，到聊到天南地北的好朋友，原来缘分就是这样的。

上课不上课，和另外几只一起玩game。

上课不听课，一直高谈阔论鲍春来和林丹。

上课在梦游，每次被叫到名都不知道老师讲到哪里。

傻傻的她，总让我经常上课上到一半，突然间两个人在那边傻笑。

结果就中老师讲。

她，晴方aka ah tey aka ah fang aka lao tey。

可我总爱叫她tey tey。

每次总爱半路杀出一句ah min ahhh，结果却没下文，原来只是没事叫爽。=.=

她，就是如此的可爱，像个小孩一样。

可我却总爱说她sabai，我就是喜欢她那傻傻的性格，哈。

但她正经起来却又有点恐怖 XD

每个星期三，上完华文课——》 去cs吃午餐——》一起搭巴士回家。

在巴士上又开始高谈阔论起来。

犹记得她的肩膀很舒服，因为我曾不小心靠着她肩膀睡着了，却不自觉，一直快到她家了醒来时我才发现我竟靠着她。哈。

千万可别和她抬杠，她会杀你个片甲不留。哈哈。

她是个问题宝宝，也爱和人斗嘴。

我们最常斗的话题，当然就是鲍春来和林丹啦。 :D

左上：16.04.2010 我去年的生日

左下：2009 form 4 生物课，解剖青蛙

右上：15.06.2010 阿yew去年的生日

右下：03.12.2009 忘了什么比赛而遇到的黄妙珠

这两年与她的回忆很多，不管甜酸苦辣。

怀念那似无忧无虑的生活。

想念那无话不说，经常溜出去玩的生活。

也常在每一节换节时间就跑到另一班去lepak，上厕所，不浪费个至少15分钟绝不回班。哈哈^.^

放学回家，晚上得空，就打电话给她聊天，真不知道怎么有那么多话聊。

也总爱在假期时临时临急摇个电话给她，“oi,等下两点去打球，在东方啊。”

她很细心、也很粗心，一年里竟扭伤脚2次。

那一次扭伤，也是我第一次看见她那失落的眼神，她总是让人担心。

一个多星期前，我、她、ah yew还有健玮还在puff garden喝茶聊天到凌晨一点。

她，还是一样，喋喋不休地说了一大堆。

而三天前，她只身踏上了飞机，飞往印尼继续她的梦想。

前一晚我人在外头，因时候不早了，我打了给她，深怕她已睡着了，来不及与她通话。

说着说着，没想到我竟然哭了，好多好多画面映在我脑海里。

或许是因为她是我的好朋友当中第一个飞出国的吧。

虽说她很傻，但她也很爱骂我傻婆。:(

原来时间真的过得很快。

咻的一声，原来她已不是我的同桌9个月了。

虽说不常联络，但这份友情依然很珍贵。

她还没去印尼前，我们还一直开玩笑说叫她别带个印尼仔回来，哈哈。

一个人在国外的她，我相信她会过的很好，因为她有着“鲍春来精神”，哈哈。

这个傻婆是个很独立的女孩，她一定能克服所有考验的。:)

大概一年或更长的时间不能见到她了，我会很想念她的。:(

只想对她说

一切加油了！fighting ！♥

btw,以后我去找你检查牙齿，哈哈 :3

愿我们的友情也像他们的一样，从少年时代，一直延续到老 :)

61.
原来是我想多了，你还是一样的爱我。
对不起，是我对不起你。

escape to subang :D

oh gosh...cnt believe that i went to subang and find yew yew today...haha...
quite tiring...spent at least one and a half hour to reach there @.@
didn't meet up with my dear and ended up go find one of my besties during sec school :D
almost half year didn't see her le...last time planned wanna meet her n tey tey together but at last cancelled.
nvm...next next week all of us are in jb!:D gonna hang out with all my dear friends :D:D
tey tey going to indonesia soon...about 1 more month ba...gonna miss her sabai sabai style liaw T.T


besides yew yew,also met with yoyo!1st time met him and he is really a nice guy...
thanks for the cactus yo...haha...look quite alike with my previous one...
thanks him for finding the cactus for me :)
and he fetched me from the train station to sunway pyramid to meet yew yew...
chat quite lot with him abt kl life,cheryl and kk along the journey...haha...
nice meeting with him :)


stroll in sunway pyramid with yew and we sat in kfc to chat...
it's been a long time since the last chat with her...
then suddenly a guy came and asked for donation...
gosh......he talked and explained a lot a lot...
and me n yew dunno wan how to reject him and we donate RM 15 each...-.-
and when he left,both of us blamed each other why not dare to reject him =.="


had my dinner with yew,shuling,jiali and xiao wen!and also yew's bro._.
all sec school friends that never meet since the release of spm results...
time flies,i really feel that...all of them become more and more pretty!haha...
jiali asked me whether saw her dear before when i was in utp...
lol...sha diao and answered her i didn't see him in utp before...haha...

back around 7.30pm and i reached my place around 9pm...gosh...
next time if want go find yew again then want overnight at her place liaw...
take ktm and lrt alone at night is quite scary...especially the ktm=.="
i so scared i will drop at a wrong station...
because it's too dark that i can't see the signboard outside clearly-.-"


had a nice day today <3


oh!tests start next week!!!!and i am going back to jb soon!!!!happy happy lalala~~~~~already start packing but i haven't finish studying for my tests...LOL...






45.
one and a half month.
天天想你。:)

Famine 30-Hour :D

在这个21世纪里，全球每一天仍然有超过24,000名儿童，死于可以预防的疾病，如腹泻、疟疾、麻疹、肺病、艾滋病、新生儿并发症等。这些孩子都活不过他们的五岁生日，死亡个案大部分发生在发展中国家。

这一切是可以避免的，因为在21世纪里我们拥有可治愈、简单且价格廉宜的措施！若大家都愿意采取行动，我们可以挽救至少6百万名孩童的性命。

今年的主题为儿童健康，口号为 “孩要健康，救是现在！” (Hunger for Health!)

it's nice to spend your weekend to join a meaningful event :) had a good experience and had a lot of fun there :) at first still don't know wanna join this event or not, but at last, i went, and it's really fun, no regret to go for it. :D

Famine 30-Hour countdown event:D performing artists for the concert!

Join as a volunteer in participants registration group :D

We gonna distribute the "giant hand" to all the campers!:D

With Janis and Lai Yee :) 

 They are all very friendly :)

Flash mob!!:D

These two little kids are soooo cute!should be triplets but one of them too shy and run away ady XD

Flash mob again :)

In the morning (before 11am)

Everyone will get the giant hand and the wrist band before entering the stadium :D

Inside the stadium.(before 12pm) More and more people!:D

Oral rehydration-cure for diarrhea

Clean,hygience water-prevention for diarrhea and malaria

Bed nets-prevention for dengue fever 

Immunisation-prevention for infectious diseases

阿牛！last section for the countdown concert!

everyone is super duper high throughout the concert although already fast for 30 hours!!:D like the songs aniu sang!《光脚丫》，很温馨、很朗朗上口的一首歌。阿牛的歌就是这样，简单却又不失内涵，全场都跟着一起唱！在很小的时候，已经对他的经典歌《对面的女孩看过来》耳熟能详了，很多很多年以后，第一次听他现场唱！超好听的·XD 全场都跟着唱，他还怪大家唱错歌词！哈哈！

Countdown!!

It's time to break fast!:D

You've made it!!!:D:D

See you next year at the 15th anniversary!:D

Oh yea,guess who i met?utpians!:)

Ruth,Wanfang and Siew Ching :D

It's finally ended!:)

View in the arena.(photo from world vision :D ) it's around 10,000 peoples from all the states in Malaysia!

 New bottle bought!special design from Bros for World Vision :D

can't you see?it wrote "Building a better world for children" :D

Another new bottle :D

bought a new bottle because i need 1 more.and who knows, during the appreciation ceremony for all the volunteers, every volunteer got a free bottle sponsored by Bros! :)

although tired, and seriously, my legs are painful after hours of standing at the gate distributing the giant hand, it's still very fun and i felt very happy that day :D all the time spent are worth :D nice memories and experience for me :D

听一听《光脚丫》这首歌吧！:D

虽然已经过了快一个星期了，但这首歌的旋律和歌词一直都盘旋在我脑海中。

36.

我知道，我都知道。我也很想你，你知道吧？

我想和你一起去看满天繁星，就像那天一样。:)

go which 1??T.T

thinking thinking thinking...
considering considering considering...


should i go to 30-Hour Famine,go back jb,or stay in room study for my bio test 2a next weekends??
how laaa......which 1 should i choose T-T
scared go le 30-Hour Famine i don't have time and energy to study bio le...
but it's such a waste to miss this event...
and i wanna go back jb badly laaaa...if not going back next week then i have to wait till end of august le laaaaa T-T
HOWWWWWW????
who can tell me how???which 1 will you choose????




23.
日子一天一天的过，叫我如何才能不想你？
对我说，教我，该如何做决定。

26072011

be cheer,simin! :)
face all the challenges...you are not alone :)
(still lazy to study,tell me how?T_T)


smile after every cry.
smile yourself being so silly.






NUS or NTU
wait for me okay?
open your door and welcome me please. XD

p/s:why both NTU n NUS logo got a lion and tat lion raise 1 of its legs,seem like waving to u XD n both d lions' tails curl in the same way...lol...alike logo...=.= haha XD

20.

我不能一直在你身边照顾你，问候你，但我的心一直是在想着你的。希望你在那里会过得很好，对不起我不能一直陪你。

有人在身边是好的。感动的话，听再多都不会腻，但几次就够，知道你在他心中，就好。

24072011

原来我是脆弱的。
不要碰我，你承担不起受伤后的我。

oh my gosh.have been wasting my time on fb and dramas in this weekend!ish...


how la how la...no mood to study at all :'(
test 2 is coming in 1 month time!!!
nope,bio test is coming in 2 weeks D:


emo this few days...very emo...really emo...


my pillow has the smell of my tears,and saliva XDD


wanna back home laaaa...:'(


i was really wrong,really really wrong...
make so many wrong decisions...i screwed my life at 1st...
i can't blame anyone,at least i know i can't...
i wan the one who to be blamed...




stop crying,stand in front of mirror,slap yourself and get a life please.




不要抓着不属于你的东西，或许那会好过些。


为何你总爱钻牛角尖呢？


别再糟蹋你的生活了。
*who is murmuring beside my ears?*




18.
感情，是需要维持的。女人，是需要呵护的。

hmph!

为什么你就不能好好的跟我说话？
鸡蛋糕，死猪头，我讨厌你。

22072011

*woke up in the midnight is ain't a good thing.ish.*


chemistry lecture cancelled today :D and miss choong gave birth le!feel happy for her :D congratulations!


so because of the class cancelled,we went jusco!7 people squeezeeeee inside a myvi!actually is 5 persons squeeze in the back seats of a myvi...oh my gosh!hahaha...talking and laughing all the way to jusco...hahaha^^


bought a book from MPH,and it's TSGS!1 of my favourite books...volume 21 already!everytime check in popular also didn't see it released...so long didn't buy it le and i missed volume 20!ishhh...couldn't find it in MPH!>.<
and bought a shirt from FOS...bought the same shirt with si wei and the image on it is two cuteeee pandas...:D it's the way soooo cute!XD
and lunch,mcd!okayyyy...just found out i eat it weekly!O.O 
last last last week eaten a fillet o fish at mcd near here...last last week eaten an apple pie and a sundae at mcd kl sentral...last week eaten a gcb at larkin terminal before i back kl...and this week eaten a fillet o fish at mcd jusco...hmmmm......unhealthy unhealthy...should cut down fast food!!!!!


loo loo brought her younger sis to MS class today!haha...her sis is sooo cute...people keep staring when we enter the class because brought a little kid inside!XD btw,i finished a High School Musical movie!hahaha...really like watching movie,ate mamee and twisties with loo's sis while watching...okay,don't doubt it,i was talking about MS class and i watched it during the whole lecture...haha...>.< brought her sis enter the library too...luckily the guard didn't ask anything and don't allow her to enter...he just looked at us and smile to us...haha^^


wanna go home sehhh...countdown in 1 month time...=.=




17
沟通，是一门深奥的学问。少了与你的沟通，我什么都不是。

........................

I HATE DOTA I HATE DOTA I HATE DOTA.






DAMN.

21072011

wheeee...received a message from daddy and he bank in already...so happy^^ XD


nice chemistry experiment today...finally not titration again...XD
but,broke a crucible today-.-"
oh well,actually i didn't break it nehhh...it cracked itself when i washed it =.= sweat lo...


miss choong gonna on leave and 待产 starting from next week...hope she will have a healthy and chubby baby :) last chemistry lecture with her tomorrow T_T
and it means that we gonna have a new chemistry lecturer...hope he is not a freak like the physics lecturer =x


saw people playing erhu at canteen foyer today!
miss the time playing erhu in utp with eho,irene,ruth,han way,ming jia,yuhang,shook peng and zhen teng...T_T
fun time together although i just learnt 1 song...really miss it so much...when i can touch a erhu again?






15.
思念是一种很玄的东西。

20072011

bought 1 blouse and 1 pant online :D
instead of saying "bought",i think i should say chose them online.
coz after place my order,i sms-ed my dad and asked him to help me bank in d money,and i am not the one who pay it XD so bad huh me...hehe...but daddy didn't reply me nehhhh...duno he wil help me bank in or not XD


kabboooommmm...don't understand the notes-.- read 2 lines then start playing games...wanna study from 9pm but still keep onlining non-stop=.= relaxing heh?haha...should lock my lappy away :O hmmmm.......




study laaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa weyyyyy >.<






14.
although you are not by my side,but you are always in my heart.

boom!

table full of stuff >.<

on the wall

lim zhiyu you see you are so important to me,either on my table or on the wall,both got the present that u gave me XD nice photoshop indeed,that photo in the picture of my table,seem like we really kissing-.- yuckxxxx =P heeheeee...

with my lovely bun bun^^

say cheeseeee :D

taken this after MS class today XD all in whiteeee shirts...haha...

this few days become sot ady :O keep photo shooting and laughing and playing and not concentrating in class haha LOL

got the highest marks for phy and maths in class...bwahahaha ._."

^~^

yeah...i am back in home sweet home,again. :)
although tired because of the journey,although do the same thing at home as what i did in kl during night,keep surfing net,but the feeling is so different.
i feel good,at home.who doesn't? :]
it will always be the right place,isn't it?


test 1 is over this tuesday.and got back some papers already.
satisfied with the results or not?i don't really know.
but it's in average,i think.
test 2 is in august.about 1 month time from now.the syllabus in test 2 are much more than in test 1.hmmm...gonna lock myself in the room,and lock my laptop as well.=~=


*chatbox changed.LOL.






一天一天的过去，每一天都在数着、算着，到底我几时才能够再遇见你。
思念，一天天地堆积着，彼此拥有着同一个信念，好吗？:)

我一直都在这儿。

09072011

weekdays busy and tired like hell.
weekends boring like hell.
from the moment i wake up,on comp,and then fb+playing games non-stop till now.zzz


finally,terrible test week passed,although next mon n tues still got pure maths and applied maths test.
hmmmm...keep cheating during test =x hahaha...cnt do this next time yea!XD




duno gonna do what now.i am damn boring=\ zz



oh yea...my phone officially dead...=.= so wan contact me please text or call my maxis number(017),dun find me via my digi num...thanks^^(signal damn lousy in my room@@)



终有一天，任何一方都会被伤害的，不是吗？




我是坏人。
我是笨蛋。
我到底怎么了？




如果林芷妤在这里，她一定又会骂我是傻婆。=\

update update

the so-called angry birds.LOL

present from sin siang and the others from methodist church when i left utp.wondering so many peoples give me this only?there are wishes from them inside the tummy of this little bird^^when i feeling depressed of studying,i will take some papers out,read them through,see the encouragement they had given me,thinking why am i be here at the moment...i shouldn't give up...shouldn't regret on anything anymore......

my bed

bun bun is beside my pillow♥still a xi guan for me to hug it to sleep...my blanket is nicely fold.LOL:) he used to like nagging at me when we skype and saw my blanket just spread untidily on bed...i would just talk back to him saying that at night also need to use 1...no need to fold larh~!=~=

gp test...status:die

chemi test...status:N/A

bio test...status:N/A

applied maths test...status:N/A

physics test...status:N/A

malaysian studies test...status:N/A

pure maths test...status:N/A

aza aza fighting starting from tomorrow!!!!!RAWRRRR!!!!!!!!

:why you reject him?

:then why you reject me?

this answer was in my mind,but i didn't say it out.

你知道我在等你吗?
你如果真的在乎我
又怎会让无尽的夜陪我度过
你知道我在等你吗?
你如果真的在乎我
又怎会让握花的手在风中颤抖
莫名我就喜欢你深深地爱上你
在黑夜里倾听你的声音

i can't.

i can't i can't i can't.



why why whyyyyyyy,you both really alike.=(
maybe i miss him too much...
miss him very very very much=(

still wondering...maybe really is my imagination...
i really thought i was dreaming...
or should be said,i hope that time i was dreaming,all was only my imaginations...
at least i won't be as depressed as now...
but...the messages in my inbox are real...
i hope my eyes got problems,misinterpret those...






反反复复。那些都好像一支支的针，刺入我心中。
你永远都看不见，其实我的心一直在淌血。
我竟然卸下冷漠，我以为时过境迁。
却又冷不防的中了一记。
人生是很无奈的，永远都不知道随时会被什么打败。
我真的很失败。
痛，永无止境的痛。

he confess to me again and again.

i rejected him again and again.

i don't want to hurt him.i really don't want.

what can i say besides sorry?

you are not lacking anything.

just that,my heart is occupied with another person.

a person who used to sayang me as much as what you did to me now.

24/06

had fun during bio practical today :D
food test experiment :D
heard many "ping pong piang" sound today in lab.haha
many people broke test tubes today...
and me too broke 1 test tube ._." hehe
and i very blur,spill the solutions out because forgot i holding the test tubes when moving my hands-.-"
luckily when the lab assistant heard the "piang" sound,she come over and help me clean it.and she still smile at me,said very hot oh the test tube >< *gratitude* feel so bad broke it>.

MS presentation next week ahhhh!!!!!!
GP test next week ahhhh!!!!!!(but dunno what to study for this O.O)
other tests next next week ahhhh!!!!!!
*shouting loud loud but i am still onlining here without study o.O*
maths no problem i think :D
but others got big problemssss!!!!!especially chemistry ><
zen me ban =(

gonna move place next week :D
gonna live alone in a single room~
wo shi xing fu de xiao hai^^
hiak hiak hiak^~^


i found out i like to do experiment but don't like to memorize all those theory T____T
life is miserable with all those facts and formulas T______T
my brain is functioning slow T__________T

*back in JB :) *

21/06

tests are coming in two weeks time.

and yet i am still dreaming.

when can i wake up and back to the reality?

study study study.

i hate malaysians study =\

friday friday friday.

jb i am coming bac :D

if you believe,then will got hope.

a sha gua is by my side.and i think i hurt him.sorry.

should i wait?yes,because you are my everything.



i miss you.i heard my heart is broken again.didn't you know that?

so simple,so true yet so painful

where are you?

you told me you are here.

i thought i found you again.

but just............

isn't my imagination of too missing you?

*wake up*
somebody please shouting this to me.

......
i was defeated by a nightmare.
my heart is bleeding.


梦境和现实是相反的，你知道吗？不要怕，我会一直在你身旁。可是，你会相信我吗?

happy father's day

he is the 1st one who hold my hand.he is the 1st one who hug me.he is the one who dote me the most.


i love him.
in my memories,he never cane me before.and he bring me out to escape when my mum beaten me up.when i was small,everytime playing with my bro and he started to bully me,i will shout for help,and my kelian bro will be scolded by him.
before the age of entering kindergarten,he love to bring me out whenever he go.shopping,yumcha with his friends,or just driving car to go wherever i want.i remembered he love to bring me go for a spin with his motorcycle when i was kid.i sat in front of him and he just let me control the steering(dangerous act,dun learn!>.<) and about the age of entering kindergarten,he hold my hand out for a stroll,and passed by 2 kindergarten.he asked me which 1 i wan to study,and i just pointed the 1 has a bigger playground in the kindergarten...haha...and he bring me enrolled to that kindergarten.everyday i ask him to bring me to the shop opposite the pasar to "转鸡蛋".this is my childhood,full of memories with him.i like to ask him for reward whenever i got good result in primary school.he will buy me anything that i wan to eat,even it's from far away.he try to give me everything that i want.he spent a lot on me.HE IS MY BELOVED DAD. :)


sometimes he is very humour.but i found out he will be like that in front of me only.LOL.i like to chat with him.he make me feel relieved.i am very naughty,like to ask him 2 questions:1.why my name is 惜敏,not思敏? 2.why my name "simin" don't have a space between(si min)? LOL




on phone with him yesterday,he asked me why don't want go ipg.i can't answer it.he sounds...a bit disappointed(?)he said don't have enough money for me.he still find a way to let me enter matrikulasi.i know i let him down for my spm result,but he still smile at me,said i was doing better than my bro.


i made his burden become heavier.i feel i am so useless when i see him getting older and older whenever i go back home.his hair is getting white.he has many health problems but still working hard.sometimes i really feel heartache when i see all these......


and i miss him very much now.i feel like going back home badly.=( 
daddy,happy father's day.

let it go

maybe i just can't let go.
it's kind of miserable(?)
所有的一切，怎么都深深的烙印在我心里，挥之不去。
脑海中又闪过好多好多的回忆
是好事？坏事？

one of the funny memories with him.i used to like to pinch him,punch him,bite him.LOL
one day,his hand gt bruise because of my bite the day before.and we went to lunch,1 of his friends saw it and asked him:"eh,why ur hand gt bruise 1?" he stunned a while and then stared at me.i looked down at my rice and try not to laugh,but still feel like laughing when heard him answered his friend like this:"owh,that day didn't see properly when walking,and then bang my hand to the table.so yea......" i still remembered that day i keep laughing at him,saying who will so geng bang his hand to the table at that angle.LOL.
funny memories.but i don't know i should smile or cry when these flash back in my mind.
just stop it...let it flow away,can?:'(
either big rain,river water,sea water or whatever...just help me wash it away :'(