200th

this is the 200th post in my blog.

congratulations to me.reach 200 ad.lol.


recently not in good mood.
maybe because of exam??
still gt 2 last papers on wed.
after that,holidays start.
thinking.how am i going to spend this holidays?
i want go shopping.
i want go singapore.
i want play badminton.
i want watch movie.
i want do many many things.
i want a life for myself.
but i knew.
all of that just "i want".
i want doesn't mean it going to happen though.

don't talk to me.
if you feel strange of me.
i am very weird recently.
i can't sort out of my mind.clearly.
i am just some kind of.
emo?

i knew i am still protecting myself.
from him.
maybe i still can't accept.
even just have a word with him.
just because he hurt me before?
i don't know.
i thought i can do it well.
not care about anything in the past.
just start it all over again.
but just realise.
i really can't.
sorry about that.
my heart is weak.

just because of that.
not dare to step 1 more out again.
hoping it can stop at this stage.
it's just so ridiculous.
i am mocking at myself.

so.
don't say that in front of me.
i hate it.
don't make that expression.
i hate it.
don't even mention him if you don't know us well.
i really hate it.


it doesn't mean anything.
for me.
really.





心中的怒火恨意一直在慢慢延伸，我到底怎麽了。