lost

today is last day of march.
my last post was on 9 march.about 3 weeks din update le.
sorry peeps :)
tomorrow is april's fool day.1 april 2011.
time flies.
a quarter of a year has passed.


i duno y i "seem like" so busy recently.
was in jb last week.
to get back my spm results.
wad can i say?
regret?
blame myself?
but it's not use now.
yea.i was blaming myself.
i disappointed everyone in the family.
i tot i will get a scolding,but it did not happen.
daddy said it's okay,at least it's better than my bro's.
but i feel so bad.
uncle and aunt all said,go appeal for the subjects.
they said i am unlucky.
sorry.i reli feel bad for it..................................................
even bro console me by sms-ing me tat day frm s'pore.
i cried after read tat msg.
he said i have do my best.it's fine.everything will b okay.
i...reli feel bad that i disappointed you all..................


what can i do next?
what i want to do next?
seriously i am lost.
i wanna do my best.but y i cnt.
i dun believe in myself now.
i am lying to myself.
i am cheating myself in my own way.
which way should i choose next.
there are many diverged roads.
i duno.whether if i can turn bac if i choose the wrong 1.
there is no much time left now.


next choice.
i hope it will b the best for me.
everything will be alright?
i hope so.


tests 2 are cuming in 2 weeks time.
but i reli duno wad am i doing recently.
totally lost in every lecture.
wad's wrong wid me actually?
even myself duno d ans...


i noe i am emo recently.
but dun ask me y.
i duno.i reli duno.
thks all d frens,seniors who ask me wad had happened.
thks all of u who comment in my status to ask me cheer up.
tel me if i have any problems can share with u all.......
you guys reli make me warm...
although some of us juz noe each other for 2+ months...
and some of d sec sch besties...
thks for letting me know u all r still with me although we r apart for few months ady...
i reli miss u all..miss those days..
but life still go on.
all d best to u all^^






going penang tomolo~my 2nd time to go thr in these 17++ years...
abt half more month,i am officially 18.
LOL :)
happy advanced birthday to me:)